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tourdefierce ([personal profile] tourdefierce) wrote2011-02-25 03:22 pm

Fic: Insubordination (Arthur/Merlin, NC-17(

Title: Insubordination
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Warnings: Dirty talk, angst, language, violence, frottage and some magic-sex. (unbeta'd.)
Word count:1, 640
Summary: MAGICAL REVEAL PORN.
Author's Note: [livejournal.com profile] blameitonmerlin is feeling sick. You know what cures a lot of illnesses? PORN. So she asked for wall slamming and I brought it. Since her journal is flocked, I post this all for your viewing pleasure. FANDOM, I WRITE INSUBORDINATION SEX FOR YOU.


Nothing in Merlin's life goes according to plan.

He's imagined this moment so many times. He's pictured Arthur's pained expression and the rage, the sound of the sword through the air; he's imagined the look of nonchalance and the confessions and the choked sound of his voice as he admits everything and says, please, I need to protect you. He's imagined how sorry he'd feel, how his heart would want to explode with loyalty and hurt and...

It's not like that at all.

Arthur's been just awful all week long and Merlin feels nothing but contempt for him.

"I just saved your fucking life, you ungrateful prick," is what comes out of his mouth when Arthur looks furious, eyes wild and hair windswept.

Merlin can still feel his own eyes glowing with magic.

"You bloody traitor," Arthur spits out.

Merlin's blood runs cold and he laughs, feeling bitter and stupid and so very idealist. "Oh yeah, cause that's exactly what I am. If I wanted to kill you Arthur, I would have just let those stupid bandits do it instead of getting my hands dirty."

Arthur looks around at the bodies of the bandits around them, as if only just realizing that they're dead. The one closest to them is bleeding out of his fingernails and Merlin has never resented his magic for loving Arthur this much before in his life. He was tired. He made a mistake but it saved Arthur's life and now—

"Christ, you are so fucking ungrateful," Merlin hears himself saying, the filter from his brain to his mouth evidently broken. "No wonder Morgana ran away. Between you and Uther, I'd have gone mad having to even look at you both all the time, let alone watch you two eat!"

Arthur draws his sword and Merlin feels the anger flair deeper inside him. It's guilt, sure, but not for being magic. He suddenly feels what Morgana must have felt like when Morgause offered her an answer better than silence. He can't look away from Arthur's thunderous face, jaw ticking with fury. He's never looked so fucking attractive in his life.

Merlin tuts, feeling cruel. "What are you going to do, Arthur?"

"I'm going to kill you," he says, words gritted out from his clenched teeth. Arthur advances, sword shining in the dying sun of the afternoon. Merlin's hands feel on fire with magic and something else too long buried to stay dormant for much longer.

"Right," Merlin snorts. "You think I'm afraid of you?"

Arthur falters in his step but when Merlin barks out a laugh, he looks reinforced. There is something so strangely beautiful about Arthur's brave nature and usually, usually it's what keeps Merlin out on the practice field or by Arthur's side in council. Now it just looks like foolish arrogance.

"Come on then," Merlin taunts, standing his ground as Arthur gets closer. "Take a swing and bring me to my knees for your precious kingdom."

Arthur lets out a roar of anger, swinging his blade up and bringing it down with such controlled viciousness that Merlin takes a deep breath, watching time slow as he memorizes Arthur's face, twisted in fury. He's so stupidly beautiful.

Merlin's magic flows through him without thought. He's got a fair amount of self loathing, guilt and a dozen other emotions raging through him but he's also aware of how painfully aroused he is. There is something about this moment, putting Arthur and him on even ground, that makes the forrest around them feel sharper. This is what the legends were talking about. No matter what happens after these moments, they were talking about this connection between them that has Merlin petulant and snarling, demanding the equality he feels pounding through his veins—this love that tears them apart.

Arthur let's out a yelp of shock when his sword disintegrates in his hand and Merlin holds out his hand, channeling his magic to throw Arthur up against the nearest tree. He's winded, but not hurt from the impact and Merlin advances slowly. He stares at the rise and fall of Arthur's broad chest, arms pulled tight above him and Merlin licks his lips.

He walks, presses himself against Arthur and cages him in, hands by Arthur's head. "You think I'm frightened of you when I kill men without thought for you?"

Arthur's gaze doesn't waver but he doesn't say a word, just breaths heavily through his nose.

Merlin feels bile rise in his throat and he fights it down. "You have no idea what horrors I've become for you and your precious kingdom with your murdering cunt of a father."

Arthur strains against the magic now and Merlin feels hollow with vexation. Merlin swallows around it, inhaling Arthur's scent of leaves, cedar and lilac. He presses closer to him, not caring if Arthur can feel his erection in his breeches or not. What's lust or love for a man compared to the crime of magic?

"Do it then," Arthur says, filthy rage hanging onto his words. "Go ahead and kill me, Merlin."

Arthur's hips buck, just slightly into him and Merlin suddenly feels oversensitive to the length of Arthur's cock, fully hard in his breeches and rubbing in tiny circles against Merlin. It's just... so absurd that this should be the end of something so menial and the beginning of something else extraordinary.

"You fucking stupid man," Merlin replies, tilting his head and smashing their lips together.

Arthur snarls into the kiss, thrusting his tongue into Merlin's mouth and clacking their teeth together as he arches his back off the tree and grinds their hips together. Merlin moans into the kiss, clutching at Arthur's hips bones and rubbing against him, hauling Arthur's groin up and slamming into him. Magic curls all around them, wild inside of Merlin as he just lets go in dizzying desire. They rut like animals, too desperate with adrenaline and misplaced anger to do anything more. Arthur licks and sucks into his mouth, hands just as hungry as they pull away from the tree to scratch and pull at Merlin's shoulders, twisting into his hair like Arthur plans to claim him.

Merlin breaks the kiss with a gasp. Arthur's head thumps back against the tree, eyes wide but not with rage. "Gods, Arthur," Merlin moans, their hips coming together over and over again—the friction nearly unbearable.

Arthur shakes his head, pulling Merlin closer until he can kiss him again just as he lifts his legs to wrap them around Merlin's waist, just offering up his cock—spreading his legs like an eager whore. Merlin fucks his tongue into Arthur's mouth when he opens willingly, both of them moaning at the new slide of their groins together in this position. He licks at Arthur's teeth and whines into his mouth because fuck it feels too good.

Merlin is so close, their cocks leaking to dampen the front of their breeches only makes the friction slightly less painful but doesn't distract from the heightened magic or the fact that him and Arthur are rutting against each other, desperate for each other. Merlin feels beyond control, thrusting up against Arthur and pulling him back until they create a rhythm that has Merlin slamming Arthur up against the wall with unprecedented force. Their cocks grind together, pleasure exploding between them in the steady hum of magic around them.

"Fuck, Merlin," Arthur growls out, biting down on Merlin's lip. Merlin just nods and takes to Arthur's jaw, licking and sucking patches onto the strength of his jawline. "More, oh yes, gods, more. Fuck me."

Merlin moans agains Arthur's neck and bits down. "I could you know," Merlin gasps out. "I could stretch you with magic and just fuck into you without pause. There's nothing you could do about it—the Once and Future King taking it from his lowly warlock, oh gods, right here out in the open... begging me for it."

Arthur moans, hips stuttering in feral pleasure. "Merlin, oh fuck, yes, yes."

"I could take you," Merlin whispers.

Merlin pulls away, whispering the filth over Arthur's skin until he's so close to coming that it only takes a few grinds from Arthur's hips until they're both coming in their breeches. Merlin moans, loud and long as magic explodes all around them and the ground shakes, lights bursting in the twilight and the wind kicking up the leaves all around them. All Merlin can see though, is Arthur's face, contorting in bliss as he comes, back arched off the tree and clawing at Merlin like he's the only thing in the world he needs.

The only thing in this forsaken kingdom that Arthur wants.

They collapse in a pile at the bottom of the tree, gasping for breath. Merlin doesn't let go of Arthur. He clutches at Arthur like a child to his mother, wrapping around him like he's starving for contact. Whatever happens next, whatever future lays ahead of them, he wants to keep this memory intact. He wants to remember the needy gasps of Arthur's wrecked voice, the hitching of his hips, the heat of his erection, the marks of his fingernails in Merlin's skin—he wants to remember the way Arthur came with Merlin's name on his lips like a prayer, an offering to the gods that belies sorrow and truth and unadulterated love.

Merlin buries his face into the sweaty skin of Arthur's neck and just stays here, shaking with sobs and desperation because this wasn't how it was supposed to happen. Magic swirls around them, sad and comforting in the cooling air but Merlin doesn't tame it, he lets it envelope them as he holds onto Arthur's body as if he's a life-line; as if Merlin would die if he let them continue without each other.

Merlin clings to Arthur and Arthur doesn't let him go. '

♥ ♥ ♥


Oh fandom, the things you make me do. I fucking love you bitches.

[identity profile] farosdaughter.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
YES. Merlin being the angry one. That is how I like my reveal. And this is hot and angsty and wonderful and tumultuous and this:

There is something about this moment, putting Arthur and him on even ground, that makes the forrest around them feel sharper. This is what the legends were talking about. No matter what happens after these moments, they were talking about this connection between them that has Merlin petulant and snarling, demanding the equality he feels pounding through his veins—this love that tears them apart.

THIS. gorgeous ♥

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I love BAMF!Merlin. I think he has so many issues that's he's going to snap on and I love it. I fucking love it.

♥ Thanks, bb.

[identity profile] imyourheroine.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
YOU ARE MY QUEEN. I AM YOURS FOR THE TAKING.
THIS IS ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY BEAUTIFUL.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I ACCEPT YOU. I SHALL RAVISH YOU ALWAYS.

Thanks, bb.

[identity profile] lesemma.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
guh. loved this.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.

My feelings about this fic = Your face, my face. Lets go.

[identity profile] samsamtastic.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 07:14 pm (UTC)(link)

Re: My feelings about this fic = Your face, my face. Lets go.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
ALL OF THIS PLEASES ME.

[identity profile] timetraveller90.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
UUUNNNNFFFFFF

This was so intense and the end had me nearly in tears at how intense and emotional it was

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I really think the reveal would be so intense with a million different emotions happening all at once.

[identity profile] hermitknut.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Guhhhhh, this is intensely hot. Gorgeous :D (sequel? Where they get back to the castle? Would be incredible. But naturally it is your decision. It's just what my head jumped to. Am I rambling? If I am it's because your fic just blew my mind. :D)
HK

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

I'm not ruling out a sequel but I've got to focus on my [livejournal.com profile] paperlegends fic now that I've finished up some Inception loose ends.

Anyway, I'm glad you liked it enough to want more.

[identity profile] sonicbookmark.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Excuse me while I go find my head, it just torpedoed off my neck.

[identity profile] winterstorrm.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
Perfect. That really hit the spot.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I'm glad you liked it, bb.

[identity profile] giselleslash.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
OMG. YOU BITCH. YOU JUST WRECKED ME AND I LOVE YOU FOR IT, GODDAMMIT.

THIS. DESPERATE, VICIOUS, FUCKING CONFUSED ARTHUR AND ANGRY, FIGHTING, BAMF MERLIN.

FUCK. YES.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
MUHAHAHA. IT'S ALL IN MY GREATER PLAN TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD, ONE FANGIRL AT A TIME.

I just... I can't imagine that Arthur and Merlin would make anything easy. Merlin has soooo many issues that aren't ever resolved and if I were him, after season 2, I would seek BLOOD I'd be so vengeful.

Plus, I love it when they love each other so much they are spitting with anger and manly angst.

[identity profile] hermette.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 01:17 pm (UTC)(link)
ahem. Yes. Well.

:thud:

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)


I'm glad it pleases you, bb.

[identity profile] parvani.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
NGH! FROTTAGE IS MY FAVORITE. ANGRY!FROTTAGE WITH BAMF MERLIN IS THE BEST EVER!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
FROTTAGE IS A RIDICULOUS WORD BUT NEVER A RIDICULOUS ACTION.

God, BAMFMerlin is so self-serving of me. I love him.

[identity profile] angelqueen04.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Holy freaking WOW! *swoons*

This is AMAZING! Great job!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
: ) thank you!

[identity profile] kajmere.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
oh my god. magic!sex is my favorite thing in the ENTIRE world.

and rough!outdoor!dirtytalking!magic!sex = *brain explosion*

and the end. god. so fucking beautiful it hurrrrts ♥


[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Dude, this fic is totally self-serving. Magic!sex and BAMF!Merlin are my FAVORITE.

♥ I'm so glad you liked it, bb.

[identity profile] planejane.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
You wrote Merlin's anger and hurt at the beginning so perfectly - it's exactly how I imagine he must feel, more and more so as time moves on. You got both characters spot on, and the final tree-slamming, depserate, needy sexual encounter was so apt for repressed Arthur and finally-letting-it-rip Merlin.

Then you write this tender and heartfelt ending and remind us of the love. Fantastic.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 10:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't imagine being Merlin because gosh, his poor feelings all the time.

I'm so glad this fit for you. I wanted them to be in character, even if most people dont' write them this way, ya know?

You're fantastic! Thank you for reading.

(no subject)

[identity profile] planejane.livejournal.com - 2011-02-27 23:06 (UTC) - Expand

[identity profile] elirwen.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Arthur let's out a yelp of shock when his sword disintegrates in his hand and Merlin holds out his hand, channeling his magic to throw Arthur up against the nearest tree. He's winded, but not hurt from the impact and Merlin advances slowly. He stares at the rise and fall of Arthur's broad chest, arms pulled tight above him and Merlin licks his lips.

I still can't decide who would I want to be in this scene. BAMF!Merlin turns me on, but Arthur's just, well, Arthur. :)

Merlin moans agains Arthur's neck and bits down. "I could you know," Merlin gasps out. "I could stretch you with magic and just fuck into you without pause. There's nothing you could do about it—the Once and Future King taking it from his lowly warlock, oh gods, right here out in the open... begging me for it."

*hyperventilates*

And I love your tags. :D

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
I still can't decide who would I want to be in this scene: RIGHT. IT WOULD BE HARD TO CHOOSE.

♥ I'm glad BAMF!Merlin and his dirty talk worked for you, darling. Thanks for reading and commenting!

[identity profile] anna-unfolding.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
HOLY HELL.

Unbelievable. Fabulously hot, and well-drawn descriptions of emotion and music, too. Awesome.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm so glad you liked it!

[identity profile] lullabylily.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow! This is really impressive!! I like the very different take on the whole reveal-theme. At first I wasn't sure I could imagine Merlin all bitter and angry about it, but then it somehow all clicked! And it's so so very hot!

"You fucking stupid man"

Oh that was such an intense moment in the fic! I can just hear it, the frustration, the whole haven't you caught on yet, you idiot, I love you, I bloody livefor your.

Brilliant!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

I can't believe Merlin would be calm in anything. He's got so many deep seeded issues with under appreciation and destiny that I can imagine that he'd snap if Arthur didn't take it well. So, I'm glad you enjoyed this different take on it.

Thanks for commenting!

[identity profile] shellsinner.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 03:08 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG! that was RAW....
*massive nosebleed*

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you liked it!

[identity profile] gwylliondream.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 05:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Very nice!

XO

[identity profile] luztremula.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 06:55 pm (UTC)(link)
This was so incredibly hot. I love it when we see Merlin being a BAMF, showing how powerful he truly is. I just like it when he gets to say what he feels in a completley unfiltered way, even in fic. Can the reveal be like this please? Anyhow, thank you for sharing!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you liked it! Thank you.

BAMF!Merlin is my addiction. I really wish the reveal would be like this. ♥

Thanks!

[identity profile] viennajones.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
It's just sad that this isn't how it's going to be. Though actually, at this point, I don't even know what I want it to be like. But this would be good :D

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
If we ever get a reveal...

I'm glad you liked it, bb.
ext_93592: from astronomy pic of the day (mouth and neck)

[identity profile] tetsubinatu.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I really loved this! The whole premise was unexpected and really wonderfully IC - and hot.

btw - typo:
"You fucking stupid man," Merlin replies, tilting her head and smashing their lips together.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 10:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

I'm glad you liked it.

[identity profile] celemie.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
HHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Merlin's MAGIC loving Arthur so much!!!! dklgjahdgljhadlgjah
TREE SLAMMING!!!!!!! ARTHUR BEGGING FOR IT!!!!!
dljgkhadljghldjfhgldfkjhg

*faints*

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
♥ I'm glad you liked it. Thank you.

[identity profile] snottygrrl.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
yowza, that was amazing ♥

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-03-02 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] lady-drose-sd.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I love magic reveal fics and this one is awesome.

It's reeeeallly HOT!!! Go porn!!!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-03-02 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! Porn is always the answer.

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