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tourdefierce ([personal profile] tourdefierce) wrote2011-02-25 03:22 pm

Fic: Insubordination (Arthur/Merlin, NC-17(

Title: Insubordination
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Warnings: Dirty talk, angst, language, violence, frottage and some magic-sex. (unbeta'd.)
Word count:1, 640
Summary: MAGICAL REVEAL PORN.
Author's Note: [livejournal.com profile] blameitonmerlin is feeling sick. You know what cures a lot of illnesses? PORN. So she asked for wall slamming and I brought it. Since her journal is flocked, I post this all for your viewing pleasure. FANDOM, I WRITE INSUBORDINATION SEX FOR YOU.


Nothing in Merlin's life goes according to plan.

He's imagined this moment so many times. He's pictured Arthur's pained expression and the rage, the sound of the sword through the air; he's imagined the look of nonchalance and the confessions and the choked sound of his voice as he admits everything and says, please, I need to protect you. He's imagined how sorry he'd feel, how his heart would want to explode with loyalty and hurt and...

It's not like that at all.

Arthur's been just awful all week long and Merlin feels nothing but contempt for him.

"I just saved your fucking life, you ungrateful prick," is what comes out of his mouth when Arthur looks furious, eyes wild and hair windswept.

Merlin can still feel his own eyes glowing with magic.

"You bloody traitor," Arthur spits out.

Merlin's blood runs cold and he laughs, feeling bitter and stupid and so very idealist. "Oh yeah, cause that's exactly what I am. If I wanted to kill you Arthur, I would have just let those stupid bandits do it instead of getting my hands dirty."

Arthur looks around at the bodies of the bandits around them, as if only just realizing that they're dead. The one closest to them is bleeding out of his fingernails and Merlin has never resented his magic for loving Arthur this much before in his life. He was tired. He made a mistake but it saved Arthur's life and now—

"Christ, you are so fucking ungrateful," Merlin hears himself saying, the filter from his brain to his mouth evidently broken. "No wonder Morgana ran away. Between you and Uther, I'd have gone mad having to even look at you both all the time, let alone watch you two eat!"

Arthur draws his sword and Merlin feels the anger flair deeper inside him. It's guilt, sure, but not for being magic. He suddenly feels what Morgana must have felt like when Morgause offered her an answer better than silence. He can't look away from Arthur's thunderous face, jaw ticking with fury. He's never looked so fucking attractive in his life.

Merlin tuts, feeling cruel. "What are you going to do, Arthur?"

"I'm going to kill you," he says, words gritted out from his clenched teeth. Arthur advances, sword shining in the dying sun of the afternoon. Merlin's hands feel on fire with magic and something else too long buried to stay dormant for much longer.

"Right," Merlin snorts. "You think I'm afraid of you?"

Arthur falters in his step but when Merlin barks out a laugh, he looks reinforced. There is something so strangely beautiful about Arthur's brave nature and usually, usually it's what keeps Merlin out on the practice field or by Arthur's side in council. Now it just looks like foolish arrogance.

"Come on then," Merlin taunts, standing his ground as Arthur gets closer. "Take a swing and bring me to my knees for your precious kingdom."

Arthur lets out a roar of anger, swinging his blade up and bringing it down with such controlled viciousness that Merlin takes a deep breath, watching time slow as he memorizes Arthur's face, twisted in fury. He's so stupidly beautiful.

Merlin's magic flows through him without thought. He's got a fair amount of self loathing, guilt and a dozen other emotions raging through him but he's also aware of how painfully aroused he is. There is something about this moment, putting Arthur and him on even ground, that makes the forrest around them feel sharper. This is what the legends were talking about. No matter what happens after these moments, they were talking about this connection between them that has Merlin petulant and snarling, demanding the equality he feels pounding through his veins—this love that tears them apart.

Arthur let's out a yelp of shock when his sword disintegrates in his hand and Merlin holds out his hand, channeling his magic to throw Arthur up against the nearest tree. He's winded, but not hurt from the impact and Merlin advances slowly. He stares at the rise and fall of Arthur's broad chest, arms pulled tight above him and Merlin licks his lips.

He walks, presses himself against Arthur and cages him in, hands by Arthur's head. "You think I'm frightened of you when I kill men without thought for you?"

Arthur's gaze doesn't waver but he doesn't say a word, just breaths heavily through his nose.

Merlin feels bile rise in his throat and he fights it down. "You have no idea what horrors I've become for you and your precious kingdom with your murdering cunt of a father."

Arthur strains against the magic now and Merlin feels hollow with vexation. Merlin swallows around it, inhaling Arthur's scent of leaves, cedar and lilac. He presses closer to him, not caring if Arthur can feel his erection in his breeches or not. What's lust or love for a man compared to the crime of magic?

"Do it then," Arthur says, filthy rage hanging onto his words. "Go ahead and kill me, Merlin."

Arthur's hips buck, just slightly into him and Merlin suddenly feels oversensitive to the length of Arthur's cock, fully hard in his breeches and rubbing in tiny circles against Merlin. It's just... so absurd that this should be the end of something so menial and the beginning of something else extraordinary.

"You fucking stupid man," Merlin replies, tilting his head and smashing their lips together.

Arthur snarls into the kiss, thrusting his tongue into Merlin's mouth and clacking their teeth together as he arches his back off the tree and grinds their hips together. Merlin moans into the kiss, clutching at Arthur's hips bones and rubbing against him, hauling Arthur's groin up and slamming into him. Magic curls all around them, wild inside of Merlin as he just lets go in dizzying desire. They rut like animals, too desperate with adrenaline and misplaced anger to do anything more. Arthur licks and sucks into his mouth, hands just as hungry as they pull away from the tree to scratch and pull at Merlin's shoulders, twisting into his hair like Arthur plans to claim him.

Merlin breaks the kiss with a gasp. Arthur's head thumps back against the tree, eyes wide but not with rage. "Gods, Arthur," Merlin moans, their hips coming together over and over again—the friction nearly unbearable.

Arthur shakes his head, pulling Merlin closer until he can kiss him again just as he lifts his legs to wrap them around Merlin's waist, just offering up his cock—spreading his legs like an eager whore. Merlin fucks his tongue into Arthur's mouth when he opens willingly, both of them moaning at the new slide of their groins together in this position. He licks at Arthur's teeth and whines into his mouth because fuck it feels too good.

Merlin is so close, their cocks leaking to dampen the front of their breeches only makes the friction slightly less painful but doesn't distract from the heightened magic or the fact that him and Arthur are rutting against each other, desperate for each other. Merlin feels beyond control, thrusting up against Arthur and pulling him back until they create a rhythm that has Merlin slamming Arthur up against the wall with unprecedented force. Their cocks grind together, pleasure exploding between them in the steady hum of magic around them.

"Fuck, Merlin," Arthur growls out, biting down on Merlin's lip. Merlin just nods and takes to Arthur's jaw, licking and sucking patches onto the strength of his jawline. "More, oh yes, gods, more. Fuck me."

Merlin moans agains Arthur's neck and bits down. "I could you know," Merlin gasps out. "I could stretch you with magic and just fuck into you without pause. There's nothing you could do about it—the Once and Future King taking it from his lowly warlock, oh gods, right here out in the open... begging me for it."

Arthur moans, hips stuttering in feral pleasure. "Merlin, oh fuck, yes, yes."

"I could take you," Merlin whispers.

Merlin pulls away, whispering the filth over Arthur's skin until he's so close to coming that it only takes a few grinds from Arthur's hips until they're both coming in their breeches. Merlin moans, loud and long as magic explodes all around them and the ground shakes, lights bursting in the twilight and the wind kicking up the leaves all around them. All Merlin can see though, is Arthur's face, contorting in bliss as he comes, back arched off the tree and clawing at Merlin like he's the only thing in the world he needs.

The only thing in this forsaken kingdom that Arthur wants.

They collapse in a pile at the bottom of the tree, gasping for breath. Merlin doesn't let go of Arthur. He clutches at Arthur like a child to his mother, wrapping around him like he's starving for contact. Whatever happens next, whatever future lays ahead of them, he wants to keep this memory intact. He wants to remember the needy gasps of Arthur's wrecked voice, the hitching of his hips, the heat of his erection, the marks of his fingernails in Merlin's skin—he wants to remember the way Arthur came with Merlin's name on his lips like a prayer, an offering to the gods that belies sorrow and truth and unadulterated love.

Merlin buries his face into the sweaty skin of Arthur's neck and just stays here, shaking with sobs and desperation because this wasn't how it was supposed to happen. Magic swirls around them, sad and comforting in the cooling air but Merlin doesn't tame it, he lets it envelope them as he holds onto Arthur's body as if he's a life-line; as if Merlin would die if he let them continue without each other.

Merlin clings to Arthur and Arthur doesn't let him go. '

♥ ♥ ♥


Oh fandom, the things you make me do. I fucking love you bitches.

[identity profile] sabriel75.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh this, this is just marvelous!

Sooo... yeah. I have no words.

I am in awe of this!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, bb. It always amazes me what gets responses and what doesn't. lol.

I'm glad you liked it so much!

[identity profile] lasvegas-lights.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
oh that is just HAWWWWWWWWT

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] marguerite-26.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Holy Shit! That was one of the hottest things I've read in a long time. BAMF! Merlin FTW. He can have me up against a tree anytime he wants.

Arthur let's out a yelp of shock when his sword disintegrates in his hand and Merlin holds out his hand, channeling his magic to throw Arthur up against the nearest tree. He's winded, but not hurt from the impact and Merlin advances slowly. He stares at the rise and fall of Arthur's broad chest, arms pulled tight above him and Merlin licks his lips.

He walks, presses himself against Arthur and cages him in, hands by Arthur's head. "You think I'm frightened of you when I kill men without thought for you?"


*imprints that into my brain FOREVER*

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
HE'LL TAKE YOU UP AGAINST THE TREE, YOU SHAMELESS HUSSY.

♥ you, forever.

[identity profile] dreamdustmama.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
YESSSS. BAMF!MERLIN AND ANGSTY SEX, UNF.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I SEE YOU THERE, SLOBBERING ALL OVER BAMF!MERLIN.

[identity profile] feelthemadness.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
NNNNNNNNNNNNNGHHHHH YES PLEASE!

That was HOT!!! :D

If only this is how it'll happen in the show - maybe a 'Late Night Merlin' episode? ;)

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.

Oh! I imagine that Late Night Merlin would have quite a few episodes.

[identity profile] lolafeist.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
ngggh, needed that

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
It needs you. ♥
ext_270953: (Merlin)

[identity profile] analise010.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I think...I'm dying from the AWESOMELY WONDERFUL HAWTNESS of this fic.

P.S. "fingerbanging-fingerlickin' good" is the best tag I've ever seen.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
DON'T DIE, BB. Although, I am very pleased you enjoyed it.

Fingerbanging is my favorite verb. Ever.

[identity profile] adrianneb78239.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)

"I just saved your fucking life, you ungrateful prick," is what comes out of his mouth when Arthur looks furious, eyes wild and hair windswept.

I don't know what it is about Merlin cussing, maybe because of his sort of innocent and fey face but it does something to me. Also this statement is so typical of snark between Arthur and Merlin.

"Come on then," Merlin taunts, standing his ground as Arthur gets closer. "Take a swing and bring me to my knees for your precious kingdom."

I love this line, I don't think there is no one, not even Morgana that riles up Arthur so much.

No matter what happens after these moments, they were talking about this connection between them that has Merlin petulant and snarling, demanding the equality he feels pounding through his veins—this love that tears them apart.

God this sentence right here basically my favorite line in the whole fic. It describes basically their whole relationship and how to they are connected in one sentence.

All in all this fic was great, and the sex was hot of course. And I love the dirty talk from Merlin. Good Job!


Edited 2011-02-25 23:51 (UTC)

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I like to think of Merlin as a bit of a teenager. When he gets angry, he curses because he can't truly express his rage in any other way.

MERLIN IS FIESTY. HE HAS LOTS OF MANLY ANGST FEELINGS.

I can imagine that the reveal will do lots of things other than the ~hurt. I'd like to think that this puts Merlin on level ground with Arthur and that Arthur realizes this. Not only can they have lots of man sex because is OBVI not taking advantage of Merlin because he's a BAMF but also because Merlin can feel normal now and not under-appreciated and angsty about his poor, overworked and guilty heart.

Thank you! I'm terribly pleased you liked it so much. ♥

[identity profile] dominiondreams.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
Well..

Damn.

That was incredible.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] gomusing.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yes, UNF. BAMF!Merlin, I just love how he suddenly snapped and everything he was trying trying to protect came out in the open in the most unexpected way with the most satisfying result. Sequel please? I would love a POV from Arthur and how they go on from here.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! BAMF!Merlin is a guilty and completely self-serving trope of mine. I love him like that! I imagine that when Merlin snaps, it will be glorious. He's got a lot of deep seeded issues with anger, ungratefulness and secrets.

I won't rule a sequel out. ; )

[identity profile] minnie0707.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
Wow that was breath-taking! BAMF!Merlin is my absolute favorite - excellent job!!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

BAMF!Merlin is totally a kind of mine.

[identity profile] kerryblaze.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
let alone watch you two eat War of the Roses homage?

Hot angry sex is my biggest kink! I've been itching for some and this left scratch marks!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:01 pm (UTC)(link)
YES. HOW DID OU CATCH THAT YOU SEXY THING?

I'm so glad this marked you up, bb. I'm happy you liked it.

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[identity profile] cinnatart.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
I was having the WORST DAY EVER and this just made it a billionty times better. YOU'RE SO GOOD TO US ALL BB.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
BAMF!MERLIN CURES EVERYTHING THAT AILS YOU. (ERECTIONS.)

I ♥ you so hard.
Edited 2011-02-27 20:02 (UTC)

[identity profile] blameitonmerlin.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
I was thinking, that this actually IS a cure, because it MORE THAN COMPENSATES FOR BEING ILL.

I know you probably get tired of me saying it, but I LOVE YOU BB <3

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so glad, bb. I don't like it when you're feeling icky.

I NEVER TIRE OF HEARING IT OR FEELING MY LOVE RECIPROCATED.

[identity profile] carolinmescalin.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Wow. Aside from being stupidly hot - guh! - this is also just beautiful.

He suddenly feels what Morgana must have felt like when Morgause offered her an answer better than silence. He can't look away from Arthur's thunderous face, jaw ticking with fury. He's never looked so fucking attractive in his life.

<-- Just perfect.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked that line. I'm so interested in Merlin's guilt with Morgana because I'm sure that Merlin's thought about defecting in his darkest hours, too tired of hiding and fighting the good fight while lying. Even if Morgana is all weird and flat now, I think that they're relationship is so devastatingly interesting.

Anyway, I'm glad you liked it

[identity profile] siennis.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
Porn... fixes... everything O.O ♥♥♥♥

Image (http://senorgif.memebase.com/2010/12/20/funny-gifs-feels-so-good-dog/)

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
LOL. That gif is disturbing but I oddly enjoy it.

[identity profile] ginger-veela.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
This is going to cure the cold I've had for two fucking weeks. AND save babies. And I don't even ship this fandom much.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
LOL. I LOVE THIS COMMENT.

[identity profile] prplhez8.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
Came over here on a rec and this is just wonderful....sooooo...yeah. Gonna follow [livejournal.com profile] sabriel75's example with NO WORDS. Well done, you!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I appreciate whoever rec'd you here. I'd love to say thanks.

Thank you!

[identity profile] i-slash-thee.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
It was fucking beautiful! I loved your characterization. ;D

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.
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[personal profile] eppy 2011-02-26 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
GET IT MERLIN.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
BE CAREFUL, HE'LL COME GET SOME OF YOU, BB IF YOU DON'T STOP BEING SO SEXY.

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[personal profile] sparklespiff 2011-02-26 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, wow. That was-- guh.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm so pleased you liked it.
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[identity profile] love-infinitum.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 08:21 am (UTC)(link)
OHGOD. I THINK I JUST MELTED.
I loved this! I love your tags!
SO HOT YET SAD AT THE SAME TIME I WAS TEARING UP
i've never read a such a different take on a reveal! poor merlin doesn't really get to voice his frustrations much does he :(

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

I really think Merlin has some deep seeded issues with the way his destiny has started, ya know? I'm glad you liked this take on it.

[identity profile] lady-krystal-79.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 10:29 am (UTC)(link)
I love this. The emotion are so right, the circumstances believable, and the characterisation spot on. Thank you!

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed all the tiny little elements of this. ♥

[identity profile] onelittlesleep.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)
AUGHHH. SO much frustration and desire. I LOVE IT. I love that they practically want to tear at each other to get closer. Nrgh. This was one of those hit the spot fics. I NEEDED that.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
MERLIN HAS A LOT OF FEELINGS, K?

I can't imagine the two of them, both so fucking stubborn and proud, not having such an explosive argument, yeah?

I'm so glad you enjoyed it, bb!

[identity profile] ravyn-ashling.livejournal.com 2011-02-26 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
ohgod, that bit about Morgana just blew me away. oh, Merlin.

[identity profile] tourdefierce.livejournal.com 2011-02-27 08:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't get passed the fact that Merlin would have a whole fucking HOST of issues with Morgana. Guilty because he almost killed her, guilty for never reaching out to her, guilty for listening to the dragon so much, guilty for not saving her when he knew exactly what was happening to her.

I know she's all smirky and ~evil now but in fanon, I can't let her go.

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